Want to know what my least favourite phrase is ever?
‘The best way to get over someone is to get under someone else’
My god do I hate that phrase, okay it may work for some people but for me…I’m too old for that.
Or maybe its because I’m an overthinker.
Because really what happens next? What happens when the person you truly want is still on your mind?
It might work for that initial moment, but when that is over, what are you left with?
I’ve been in love twice in my life, two very different kinds of love.
When my first relationship ended, I didn’t quite know what to do with myself. I had been one half of a couple for so long I didn’t know who I was without him. So, I explored who I thought I was and discovered the person I truly am. I went on dates, met new people, did everything I could to put my relationship behind me.
This time around its not as easy. I’m older now, I don’t want or need to do what I did last time. I’m not like these twentysomething girls out every weekend dating different men (not that there is anything wrong with that-there isn’t) I just know that isn’t for me anymore.
I’m finding myself a little lost.
And although our relationship to him was never a relationship, to me it was.
To me, he was everything. And without him I feel lost.
And even though there have been moments, fleeting moments where I have felt so hurt, moments I have wanted him to feel how I feel even if just for a moment. But I couldn’t do it, I still can’t.
Because in my head, I’m still in love, so why would I want anyone else?
I know a lot of people on the rebound, go out of their way to make their ex jealous and even if I thought that was the right way to go about things, would it help?
After a breakup of any kind you’re in a fragile state of mind.
Whereas some people may be able to distinguish the difference between sex and love, I’m unable to do that right now.
So, for me that phrase doesn’t work.
For me, I know I have to go through the healing process.
Newfound love is not going to happen straight away, getting over someone wont either.