Even though I have been single for quite a while now (hey have I mentioned that before?)
It has taken a good amount of time for me to start to embrace single life. It doesn’t come natural to me to be single. And if I could choose, I would always choose to be in a relationship.
I must admit I miss being in a relationship and even though I know I won’t be single forever I do wonder in those early hours of the morning when I find myself lying awake overthinking, when exactly my time will roll back around.
It’s not that I feel like I am hugely missing out on anything, I genuinely think right now I need to be single, my heart needs time to fully heal itself.
It isn’t even that I feel incomplete without that partner, I just miss the little things ya know?
Here are five of the things I miss most.
And I’m sure some of you out there can totally relate.
And just to clarify I am not talking just about sex.
I miss sleeping next to another person, leaning on their chest and breathing in their scent. Cuddling into them and stealing their warmth, hearing another person breathing next to you, waking up to that heavy arm pulling you into them. I miss that.
I miss holding hands with someone.
Those forehead kisses and those arms embracing you from behind when you’re having a bad day. I genuinely struggle to remember the last time anyone did that.
Those morning/late night texts
When you’re in a relationship this is probably something you take completely for granted, waking up to a good morning message, falling asleep to a sweet dreams text or just having someone to continuously text all day every day.
Even now, even though a lot of time has passed I sometimes have the urge to text when I see something I know he would like, or to tell him about my day or remark on something funny I have heard.
This is probably one of the hardest habits to break when you’re no longer in a relationship.
Going on a date
And as much as you can do this when you’re single, I love dates more so when I am in a relationship.
I love the simple things like going for dinner or going to the cinema.
I love dressing up for a date and reminding each other why you fell in love in the first place.
Someone to talk too
As much as you have your friends, family, even your work colleagues to talk too. Nothing can beat having a partner to share all your thoughts with. From the ridiculous thoughts, to the rants about work to your hopes for the future just knowing you have that person you can run too is so comforting.
As much as I hate to miss this, I do.
There is nothing like a boyfriend/girlfriend making you feel good. I know friends can do this to, but nothing beats that desire from your partner to make you feel like a supermodel even when you’re far from looking like one, with your hair piled on top of your head and sudocrem on your face.
But hey, I hear being single is character building.
And in part I agree. It gives you time to enjoy your own company, learn to do things alone and ultimately lets you decide what it is you are looking for, so when your time does come around again, you’re ready.