Relationships, breakups, you don’t have to look far to read up on them.
What you don’t often read about is when you fall in love with someone and then lose that person before you ever get a chance to even date them.
When you fall in love with someone in this way, someone you never even end up dating its almost frowned upon to mourn that person, to mourn the relationship that never was.
I know this because this is exactly what I have been going through.
And there is just no one to turn too, because no one takes the connection you had seriously enough.
No one understands how badly your heart and your head is hurting.
People will tell you to just get over it, you can do better, just forget about him. But its easy for them to say because they don’t believe it was real in the first place.
But it was.
When you fall in someone in this way you don’t even know if you can bring them up in conversations, do you talk of them as an ex? When technically they weren’t?
They mean too much to you to ignore.
You’re left with so many unanswered questions.
Did they even find you attractive?
Did they truly love you?
Did they ever want to make things official with you?
Would you have been a good couple?
Would life has been as good as you imagined?
Recovering from said person is so hard, of course you’re upset they’re leaving, but because they left too soon.
Somehow it feels worse than an actual breakup, as you never got to show them the you in a relationship.
I know I will question whether it truly was real love.
Because how was it if we never dated?
But I know deep down it was, I know for sure it still is.